A friend of mine asked me something the other day I hadn't asked myself - how long have I been unhappy in my marriage? I was shocked to realise it amounted to a good ten years, out of 15.
I am kicking myself as despite the issues I am currently trying to improve with my husband, an old friend of mine from school that I have known for about 30 years has come back into my life in a way I just wasn't expecting. We used to hang out all the time and he once told me that he wanted more than our friendship, but at the time I was shy and also didn't want to risk spoiling things as it was the best relationship ever..so we stayed just friends. 17 years ago, after not seeing eachother for 6 years due to uni etc he turned up in the shop where I was working, both of us very pleased to see eachother, and we met up for the evening to chat. My current husband was on the scene at the time as someone I was interested in, but my friend wasn't seeing anyone. I wish now I hadn't got married as I now realise I married the wrong guy - seriously.
I am not a home wrecker, we are both married and I believe he might have kids too, not sure. I have a daughter to think about too. I came across photos of him recently online and felt absolutely homesick, especially when I saw his wedding ring, and just wished I could tell him how much I love him, and have loved him for all these years. The permanent nature of never spending time with him again felt so very very sad. When times have been difficult with my husband I have even compared them both, knowing that my best friend would never have treated me in such a way. I just didnt admit my feelings even to myself until now. Just can't believe my own shyness.
At the time of dating my husband we were part of a church we no longer attend, that teaches to marry early and start a family. Uh, do I feel sick now for ever listening to that counsel plus others from there. I just never had a chance to explore my feelings for my friend who didn't go to the church, but has all the lovely qualities he has anyway.
I have made contact with him by email but not sure if my friend will respond as he might just want to forget his disappointment with me and move on. I don't know his family situation or even if he's happy, just know that I have a burning inside to tell him how I feel, whilst making it clear that I respect him so much that I don't expect him to leave his wife for me because most of all, I want for him to be happy, and for our children to be too.
I once didn't get to tell someone that I liked them because they died in a car accident, so I know how awful it can feel to live with regret. Shall I tell my friend my true feelings?
I am kicking myself as despite the issues I am currently trying to improve with my husband, an old friend of mine from school that I have known for about 30 years has come back into my life in a way I just wasn't expecting. We used to hang out all the time and he once told me that he wanted more than our friendship, but at the time I was shy and also didn't want to risk spoiling things as it was the best relationship ever..so we stayed just friends. 17 years ago, after not seeing eachother for 6 years due to uni etc he turned up in the shop where I was working, both of us very pleased to see eachother, and we met up for the evening to chat. My current husband was on the scene at the time as someone I was interested in, but my friend wasn't seeing anyone. I wish now I hadn't got married as I now realise I married the wrong guy - seriously.
I am not a home wrecker, we are both married and I believe he might have kids too, not sure. I have a daughter to think about too. I came across photos of him recently online and felt absolutely homesick, especially when I saw his wedding ring, and just wished I could tell him how much I love him, and have loved him for all these years. The permanent nature of never spending time with him again felt so very very sad. When times have been difficult with my husband I have even compared them both, knowing that my best friend would never have treated me in such a way. I just didnt admit my feelings even to myself until now. Just can't believe my own shyness.
At the time of dating my husband we were part of a church we no longer attend, that teaches to marry early and start a family. Uh, do I feel sick now for ever listening to that counsel plus others from there. I just never had a chance to explore my feelings for my friend who didn't go to the church, but has all the lovely qualities he has anyway.
I have made contact with him by email but not sure if my friend will respond as he might just want to forget his disappointment with me and move on. I don't know his family situation or even if he's happy, just know that I have a burning inside to tell him how I feel, whilst making it clear that I respect him so much that I don't expect him to leave his wife for me because most of all, I want for him to be happy, and for our children to be too.
I once didn't get to tell someone that I liked them because they died in a car accident, so I know how awful it can feel to live with regret. Shall I tell my friend my true feelings?
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