I cant believe Ive joined a forum to ask for help. I guess that means it is real. I never do anything behind my husbands back, I ve always been open and honest, but I cant go on with my marriage. 2014 was supposed to be the year of us "getting things on track" but week in week out he just continues to upset me. We went on a "family holiday" the first week in Jan with our 2 year old. It was supposed to be a week where we rest, spend time with out daughter and get close once again. The first night I had an early night with daughter and he went out drinking with some single girl we met till 11pm. Next day, I was Ok, he said sorry... until he went out with her that night till 1am. In typical fashion he was devestated the next day, his favourite slogan is "you deserve so much better, I dont deserve you" yet week in week out his behaviour towards me says something totally different. Hes taken out loans behind my back, I found out, he begged for forgiveness and I did... last night we got in an argument and in front of the kids he swore at me and squared up to me, he told me he hated me and said he could kill me. He drunk drove to my dads house and took a suitcase of stuff with him. My dad came over this morning, hes begging to come back, he loves me, he would never hit me etc etc. The thing is, I am starting to think he has no respect for me because I keep forgiving him. I heard a saying a long time ago, "if you act like a doormat, youll be treated like one" and as independent as I am, I think that is what i have reduced myself to. 7 years together, he swears he loves me and cant live without me, yet he continues to treat me like this. I just dont know what to do. In a marriage, am I just supposed to keep forgiving him? He wanted to come back tonight and Ive said no, my 13 year ols son is asking where he is :(
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