As title suggests I'm getting fed up of being in a relationship with my girlfriend...
The simple answer to this would be to split, but its not as black and white as this. So I will explain:
We have been together for just over a year and a half, I love her and can only hope she loves me. We are also opposites; in a lot of ways. She has had a conservative upbringing, her parents are Victorian in nature, no premarital sex, doesn't like to even talk about it.
I am open-minded, go to uni, don't not judge people and love to learn about culture.
Tonight, I was making a platonic joke about sex, and it wasn't like I was been personal about her, and she ignored me. So I asked her why. She tells me she just doesn't like me taking about it, and it makes her cringe.
A bitter argument ensued in which I told her;
It's not like I was going over the top talking about it towards her like some hormonal teen, and told her she was over-reacting. I also expressed my irritation at the fact she never lightens up, and is always "stuffy" and "uptight/prude" about these issues, and makes me feel I cannot have a laugh.
She tells me also that I "go on and on about trivial stuff, and act like a clingy girl when all I want is a normal convo", to which she said no offence to me. This was after I told her she always avoids conversations and acts like a petulant child. It's almost as if she isn't capable of having a deep and meaningful conversations, something which I value in a partner.
Also, she tells me that I am overly-emotional and love too much, whereas she just can't let people into her heart. I told her that she needs to let people in, to feel love. She said she sees love as friendship and laughter, which of course has annoyed me because it kind of reduces our love and the relationship I have been investing in for 1.5years to nothing but a mere friendship. That really hurts.
I just feel that after all this time me and her are just not on same page. The issue is I love her and don't want to break up. But at same time, I feel it will only get worse.
The issue is not breaking up in itself, but the fact that she won't be here. One example is when my father died. After so many weeks, I still thought I would be seeing him the following weekend, but I wasn't. A surreal feeling, were you do not realise its over, but is.
The other argument is, I have low self esteem and don't think I will find anyone else, both because I don't find myself attractive, and because I don't have the confidence to approach girls. Even though I've done it before.
Any advice?
P.s. there is more i could add to this, but it would be too long.
The simple answer to this would be to split, but its not as black and white as this. So I will explain:
We have been together for just over a year and a half, I love her and can only hope she loves me. We are also opposites; in a lot of ways. She has had a conservative upbringing, her parents are Victorian in nature, no premarital sex, doesn't like to even talk about it.
I am open-minded, go to uni, don't not judge people and love to learn about culture.
Tonight, I was making a platonic joke about sex, and it wasn't like I was been personal about her, and she ignored me. So I asked her why. She tells me she just doesn't like me taking about it, and it makes her cringe.
A bitter argument ensued in which I told her;
It's not like I was going over the top talking about it towards her like some hormonal teen, and told her she was over-reacting. I also expressed my irritation at the fact she never lightens up, and is always "stuffy" and "uptight/prude" about these issues, and makes me feel I cannot have a laugh.
She tells me also that I "go on and on about trivial stuff, and act like a clingy girl when all I want is a normal convo", to which she said no offence to me. This was after I told her she always avoids conversations and acts like a petulant child. It's almost as if she isn't capable of having a deep and meaningful conversations, something which I value in a partner.
Also, she tells me that I am overly-emotional and love too much, whereas she just can't let people into her heart. I told her that she needs to let people in, to feel love. She said she sees love as friendship and laughter, which of course has annoyed me because it kind of reduces our love and the relationship I have been investing in for 1.5years to nothing but a mere friendship. That really hurts.
I just feel that after all this time me and her are just not on same page. The issue is I love her and don't want to break up. But at same time, I feel it will only get worse.
The issue is not breaking up in itself, but the fact that she won't be here. One example is when my father died. After so many weeks, I still thought I would be seeing him the following weekend, but I wasn't. A surreal feeling, were you do not realise its over, but is.
The other argument is, I have low self esteem and don't think I will find anyone else, both because I don't find myself attractive, and because I don't have the confidence to approach girls. Even though I've done it before.
Any advice?
P.s. there is more i could add to this, but it would be too long.
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