Basically I split from my boyfriend at the weekend and i'm not coping too well at all. We'd been together nearly two years and are both now at uni 3 1/2 hours away. He took a gap year and stayed at home last year whilst I went to uni an hour away but we still saw each other every weekend, but this year he went to uni and we've been proper long distance. I'd been going down to see him and everything, and had a lovely time, but he was honest with me when I last went down and admitted he wasn't happy and our relationship was having a negative effect on him and his life at uni. We agreed to try and keep it going until Christmas so we could spend some time together but he messaged me at the weekend saying that he loves me but just couldn't do it anymore. He was very lovely about it all, offered to speak on the phone/meet up and discuss it but at the time I thought that was a bad idea, so we had a quick and emotional phone conversation and that was it.
However, now I am completely heartbroken. All I want to do is text him and see him :( I was looking forward to seeing him at Christmas so much and I just feel like everything I was looking forward to is gone. I'm a nursing student and am on placement over Christmas until Feb and i'd even mentally planned my off duty around seeing him and everything :'( I'll be spending quite a bit of time alone over the Christmas period, as unlike my flatmates i've only got the bank holidays off and the thought of being here on my own when I was looking forward to spending it wit my boyfriend is killing me :(
I feel like as we haven't seen each other and have had virtually no contact at all that I have no closure. I really feel like in a couple of weeks when he is home for Christmas and i'm home for a weekend asking him to meet up so I can at least say goodbye and give him a few things (however unimportant) back, and round it off nicely by not being bitter. But all my friends say that a clean break is best and not to upset myself by seeing him. But I don't think I can be any more upset that I already am. What do you think?
However, now I am completely heartbroken. All I want to do is text him and see him :( I was looking forward to seeing him at Christmas so much and I just feel like everything I was looking forward to is gone. I'm a nursing student and am on placement over Christmas until Feb and i'd even mentally planned my off duty around seeing him and everything :'( I'll be spending quite a bit of time alone over the Christmas period, as unlike my flatmates i've only got the bank holidays off and the thought of being here on my own when I was looking forward to spending it wit my boyfriend is killing me :(
I feel like as we haven't seen each other and have had virtually no contact at all that I have no closure. I really feel like in a couple of weeks when he is home for Christmas and i'm home for a weekend asking him to meet up so I can at least say goodbye and give him a few things (however unimportant) back, and round it off nicely by not being bitter. But all my friends say that a clean break is best and not to upset myself by seeing him. But I don't think I can be any more upset that I already am. What do you think?
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