social isolation

Hello, I guess I could use some positive encouragement to get me through the next few hours as there's a lot on my plate. I struggle with social isolation and this has/(does) make a necessary breakup very difficult for me. Not everyone can understand why a person would ever become socially isolated, and that's okay. All I ask is for a moment of somebody's time to help a stranger out. I tolerate things which are not okay because I believe that I'll never find anyone else. I often tell myself that I need to do things in order to deserve a relationship. Poor life choices and bad luck has led me where I am today. There are so many unique people in this world and I value the friendship of anyone who appreciates my company. But I would never enter a meaningful relationship with someone just because there's nobody else around. In the past I have rejected women I just wasn't interested in them that way. Yet despite everything that's happened I had the chance encounter with an amazing and beautiful woman who I fell in love with. We went through a two year relationship together and we've always seemed to compliment each other and make each other happy. There's both good and bad in our relationship and I still cannot forget the good. We're both sentimental and I would make her handmade cards, gifts, and we'll just appreciate each other's company by spending time tog ether and going to outings like a concert or the beach. This was a person who I planned on marrying and we made long term plans together. She's bipolar. She is not perfect by any means but she is so accepting and understanding. I know that this isn't her choice to be this way. She was sexually assaulted at a young age and then abused throughout her entire life until I met her. I am still living at home when we met. Over time we provided her the opportunity to live with us to escape a violent household. I knew this was sudden and wouldn't bode well for our relationship. But I believe if you love someone that you are okay with nothing more than to see the person you care about be happy. I am twenty-six years old, unemployed, and living at home. That's why I'm isolated and perfectly willing to tolerate certain things and allow them to continue. If anyone took the time to read this: thank you.

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