I'm sure those of you who remember me may have seen it coming...and in a way I did too but my heart tried to ignore what my brain was telling me. Long story short, he cheated in January...I fell into a depression, tried to work on it, then nearly 2 weeks ago he tells me it'd be best if we divorce. According to him he was trying to work on being a better husband but nothing he did was "good enough" and that I was still really depressed with no improvement. All that has made him unhappy so he decided to skip out.
Today makes a week that he packed his car and rove 2,000 miles back east and I'm left here with a broken heart and just as depressed. SOOOOOO.....I'd like to know about how long I will feel so down. We've been married 2 years and no kids (thankfully so short) and moved to California last year. We had no friends or family here and had to start from scratch. Well he made friends and wasn't working, just collecting disability from the VA...I was working full time but still hadn't come out of my shell. When he left last Sunday I felt like I was abandoned. I have nobody here and I'm incredibly lonely and just spent my time off in bed and crying. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling depressed. When will this pass? I feel like it would be much easier to be angry and deal with hate. But no, I still live the stupid man and thankfully he agreed to be friends.
And yes, I know I'm 25, I got my whole life ahead of me, got to work on myself, yadda yadda yadda. I know. What I need guidance on is how to handle this. I'm so lost...
Today makes a week that he packed his car and rove 2,000 miles back east and I'm left here with a broken heart and just as depressed. SOOOOOO.....I'd like to know about how long I will feel so down. We've been married 2 years and no kids (thankfully so short) and moved to California last year. We had no friends or family here and had to start from scratch. Well he made friends and wasn't working, just collecting disability from the VA...I was working full time but still hadn't come out of my shell. When he left last Sunday I felt like I was abandoned. I have nobody here and I'm incredibly lonely and just spent my time off in bed and crying. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling depressed. When will this pass? I feel like it would be much easier to be angry and deal with hate. But no, I still live the stupid man and thankfully he agreed to be friends.
And yes, I know I'm 25, I got my whole life ahead of me, got to work on myself, yadda yadda yadda. I know. What I need guidance on is how to handle this. I'm so lost...
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