plagued by sexual thoughts about a friend

this is really starting to bother me. i have a friend who ive known for years and recently ive started having sexual thoughts and fantasies about him, its starting to become too much. at least a few times a day i imagine having sex with him and think about his penis frequently. he has a girlfriend and is not at all interested so i feel like its really inappropriate to be thinking about him like this. i feel like i need to talk about it to someone but i can't talk to counselors face to face so openly about sexual stuff and even have trouble with helplines, if i don't talk about it i'm afraid it'll turn into an obsession, and i don't want it to become that because i've had a sexual obsession with someone else in the past which came about from not talking about it. i'm not sure what advice i'm even looking for here, i just feel the need to post about it because i can't talk about it. i think about him every time i jack off and it's totally wrong because we're supposed to have a normal friendship, that's all he wants it to ever be.

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