married for 2 years and struggling.

Here we go. ive been with my wife for 7 years and married for two, she is 24 and i am 31. For a little while now i have been struggling to motivate myself in the relationship. we both have jobs, a nice house, live in a nice place, have nice family, a nice dog and a nice life. We do everything together, as we both like doing the same stuff. I moved to where she lived and started a new life, since i have been here, because of my shifts it is difficult to make friends in the area and i don't like her friends. we had a rocky point a year ago when she had mental health issues that i struggled with but did everything i could to help her find a way to deal with them, and now shes on anti depressants. I dont find her sexy and because of that my mojo has dwindled. Everyone loves her who meets her, because she is cute and funny, which i found at the start but after 7 years it becomes annoying and hard to believe. She is hot, but i struggle to find her attractive anymore and sex is terrible. I dont want to kiss her or hug her. I cant have an intellectual conversation with her. im finding that all the things that i loved her for at the start im starting to resent her for. The thought that i may not want this perfect life anymore is very hard to think about, mainly because how many people would be upset, her, her family, mine. And it may bring back mental health issues with her. I never believed in marriage and always enjoyed my own company, but i got married because i guess that's was the right thing to do. She wants babies, and so do i, but i'm doubting it at the moment as it would be wrong to bring a child into this world if iim thinking this way. If we ever split i would get the same question over and over again, why would you do that your perfect for each other and you have a perfect life. Maybe i dont want this perfect life, and i definitely don't want the responsibility of this dog. Ive started to think about searching for whats missing in my life but ive never cheated on anyone. I dont have anyone to talk to, not really into those chats with family and everyone i know round here is a lot younger than me. So i just bottle it up and try and work through it in my head. thats my way of sorting stuff out. I used to talk to my friends where i live but i dont have them anymore, i could ring them but im more of a face to face person. she hasnt done anything wrong, i think im just worried that im gonna spend the rest of my life just existing in a relationship because its easier, rather than upsetting people to make myself happy. this seems very unstructured, but its just the way it came out in my head. Im thinking about seeing a counsellor and ive been psycho analysed. the results only backed up my thoughts. Help.

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