He told me he will probably never love me

I am a 50 yr old female and have been in a relationship for a year now . When we first met I was unsure about how I felt about him and called it off but after a couple of weeks realised I missed him and wanted to give it all a chance . We continued to see each other and my feelings quickly became stronger for him. He is an emotionally distant man who is not very affectionate and I have found this difficult as I am exactly the opposite . He was previously married for 10 yrs but they have been divorced for 7 yrs now with 2 children aged 19 and 15 who he has week on week off . He is very bitter towards his ex wife but seems to often talk about her in a hateful way . We have a great sex life and are very compatible in that area . I have recently been diagnosed with multiple brain aneurysms and am waiting to have surgery in next couple of months . He has been by my side at all appointments etc and I know he is doing his best to offer me support . But I feel he may only be staying with me because of my situation and we have spoken about it and I told him that I really needed to know if that was the case ?? He told me that he does care for me a lot but does not think he will ever love me but enjoys our times together a lot and is happy with his life right now . Although I appreciate his honesty I am also very hurt and am not sure what to do . I feel stupid being with someone who I know doesn't and probably will never love me . Why doesn't he just leave if he sees no future ?? And what will happen after my surgery and I am well again ?? I know I should leave him but its so hard when I care so much and He admitted to me that he had chatted online to another woman but had no intention of ever meeting her .. They are just friends I just feel so confused right now . We spend every weekend together and talk every night on the phone ( he lives an hour away from me ) . I can't quite work out what it is that makes me want to stay with this man so much especially after he has told me re not ever loving me . I am hoping someone has experienced a similar situation and can advise me ?? Thank you in anticipation .. R

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