How to win my husband back after my EA?

Last year i had an EA with someone i never met. It was going for 1 month until i ended the EA becuase it was wrong and i wanted to be with my husband, even though we were not at our best. I kept the ended-EA as a secret for few months before my husband discovered the EA yesterday and it ruined our wonderful past few months (i actually changed for better and loved him much more then i used to do). It ruins my whole world and his, as i realised during those past few months that my husband is a good man and i only want to be with him. And we are happy that a baby is coming (the babys his, because i never slept around and im 5 months pregnant). Im sad and deeply regret that it needed an EA to realise how important he is for me, and how he is my life and i wouldnt exchange him for anything (dumb me for not knowing this before the EA). I hurt him badly. I know he wont be able to trust me again. But i really am sorry and i know i wouldnt do it to him again. Hes my whole world, i love him so much more,, it feels so much more better. I know i should of just came clean, but i reasoned my self that ill just live the guilt and i dont want to hurt him, since I actually stopped contacting the OM and i focused on our relationship and our little family. Idk what i should do anymore. My mother in law already said she will find him another girl if he left me. And im willing to do anything for him, like anything.. I screwed up big time. I failed him. I disapointed him. I disappointed my self. I keep asking myself how could i do this to him. I hate myself, i hate how stupid i was. The only thing that keeps me alive atm is the baby im carrying, cause hes part of my husband.

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