I'm married about 1 1/2 year and I knew at the day standing at the alter it was a mistake. I just hoped things would change, and my feelings would change. I have been living a fake life for these years, and I just can't take it any more. My wife's family is amazing and she has been loving to me. She has been the only one to ever raise me up. But I can't help that I have no physical attraction to her. I try and control my urges but eventually end up having sex with other women. I even cheated with her once.
Now after a few months, we have been seeing a couples therapist. She wants to start a family. I would like to start a family too, but not with her. She's probably at least 70 lbs overweight and a very lazy person. She doesn't exercise much and doesn't do much around the house. All the kinds of things that I really despise, yet being the dummy I managed to marry her anyway. It's come to the point where I can't kick the can down the road anymore. Last night she wanted to have unprotected sex....I couldn't do it and eventually when she pried I told her she needs to lose some weight. No it wasn't said the best way, but I've been hinting at this for several years now. I just can't bear the thought of having a child with her and having this marriage fall apart. I couldn't live with myself if this happened. I feel so lost and lonely. I know what I have to finally do...would like to get some advice as I don't have anyone to go to about this.
Now after a few months, we have been seeing a couples therapist. She wants to start a family. I would like to start a family too, but not with her. She's probably at least 70 lbs overweight and a very lazy person. She doesn't exercise much and doesn't do much around the house. All the kinds of things that I really despise, yet being the dummy I managed to marry her anyway. It's come to the point where I can't kick the can down the road anymore. Last night she wanted to have unprotected sex....I couldn't do it and eventually when she pried I told her she needs to lose some weight. No it wasn't said the best way, but I've been hinting at this for several years now. I just can't bear the thought of having a child with her and having this marriage fall apart. I couldn't live with myself if this happened. I feel so lost and lonely. I know what I have to finally do...would like to get some advice as I don't have anyone to go to about this.
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