I am 30, Married 7 years with 1 child.
We were always the happy couple, never going to get divorced or do those terrible things that other couples did to each other. We had what I though was a healthy marriage.
After 4 years of struggling with infertility we finally had our child.
After our child was born and I went back to work things changed... at first the problem was that my husband resented me for "making" him have this child that cramped his lifestyle. Even though I made it very clear from our first date what I wanted in life, and what my intentions were. After that he apologized for that agonizing few months of torturing me with his anger and said he loved our child and was ecstatic to be a father.
But then he started telling me that I was lazy, and selfish, and never did anything around the house. In truth his issue was I never did the things he wanted done around the house.
During this time he lost a very large amount of weight and for once in our relationship he weighs less than I do. So now he hounds me about my weight. (I am going to the gym 3 times a week and trying to change my lifestyle so that I can lose weight as well) and on top of that tells me how lazy I am, and when I say I'm tired or not feeling motivated he tells me our child should be the only motivation I need. He talks down to me, and makes me feel like a failure because losing weight has not been as easy for me as it has been for him.
When I tell him I don't like the way he is speaking to me or treating me he responds that I "make him" treat me that way. When I stand up for myself I'm "overreacting" or "too sensitive"... I'm honestly just lost. My counselor says that he is Psychologically and Verbally abusive. I'm having a hard time coming to terms with that. In the end I'm starting to except that it is true. I don't even know where I'm going from here or where to post this. I'm so lost right now.
We were always the happy couple, never going to get divorced or do those terrible things that other couples did to each other. We had what I though was a healthy marriage.
After 4 years of struggling with infertility we finally had our child.
After our child was born and I went back to work things changed... at first the problem was that my husband resented me for "making" him have this child that cramped his lifestyle. Even though I made it very clear from our first date what I wanted in life, and what my intentions were. After that he apologized for that agonizing few months of torturing me with his anger and said he loved our child and was ecstatic to be a father.
But then he started telling me that I was lazy, and selfish, and never did anything around the house. In truth his issue was I never did the things he wanted done around the house.
During this time he lost a very large amount of weight and for once in our relationship he weighs less than I do. So now he hounds me about my weight. (I am going to the gym 3 times a week and trying to change my lifestyle so that I can lose weight as well) and on top of that tells me how lazy I am, and when I say I'm tired or not feeling motivated he tells me our child should be the only motivation I need. He talks down to me, and makes me feel like a failure because losing weight has not been as easy for me as it has been for him.
When I tell him I don't like the way he is speaking to me or treating me he responds that I "make him" treat me that way. When I stand up for myself I'm "overreacting" or "too sensitive"... I'm honestly just lost. My counselor says that he is Psychologically and Verbally abusive. I'm having a hard time coming to terms with that. In the end I'm starting to except that it is true. I don't even know where I'm going from here or where to post this. I'm so lost right now.
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