Divorce was finalized in December 2013. I didn't want it (though I should have) but it happened anyway and the whole thing left me reduced to feeling 2 feet tall and heartbroken, etc...the usual. Anyway. I still think about him daily though it doesn't hurt like it used to but for some reason last night I mildly "relapsed." I had a dream where he had found someone new and within weeks were planning to get married. Even though he and I don't currently live anywhere near each other, for some reason in the dream I saw him almost daily around town parading his new girlfriend around and she would give me nasty looks and throw it in my face how I couldn't keep him faithful but now she has him, etc. Long story short it was VERY hurtful and I woke up about 3 hours ago crying and I'm still trying to shake that feeling off.
Yes, I have unresolved issues with him and don't have closure at all but I thought all those dreams ended. This seemed to come out of nowhere. To those who've had similar things happen to you, how do you deal? Do the feelings last and you get set back or is it just temporary? I'm SO tired of being hung up on him. I disgust myself with how long I am taking to get over him and I can't talk to anybody because they are tired of hearing it too. What do I do?
Yes, I have unresolved issues with him and don't have closure at all but I thought all those dreams ended. This seemed to come out of nowhere. To those who've had similar things happen to you, how do you deal? Do the feelings last and you get set back or is it just temporary? I'm SO tired of being hung up on him. I disgust myself with how long I am taking to get over him and I can't talk to anybody because they are tired of hearing it too. What do I do?
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