I am 28 and my dh of 5 years is the same age. we have a 2 yo son. long story short: he is abusive. Verbally, financially and also physically (3-4 times).
i had a really law self esteem, especially after given birth and was also feeling very lonely.
i got back to work and there something happened. the boss started to have a crush on me...he is with 14 years older, divorced. he gave me so much attention that his intentions were obvious to everyone. i was at first shocked. i didn't do/say anything that would show him my interest. but little by little i also started to have feelings for him. it was more than infatuation, i am sure. i felt safe with him. i really don't know how to explain it...but the feeling was there. i felt very guilty and stared to have a major depression. i decided that for my own sanity i had to quit and find another job. i did quit and i also cut off all contacts with him.
now, after 6 months have passed depression has lifted, i am ok if i can say so, but my marriage is still the same. dh still gets mad out of nothing, pick up fights.....so there are times at night when i close my eyes and wonder if i did the right thing quitting my job and letting him go. he was just too good for me, he really was out of my league and i cannot understand his interest in me at all. i know that life offers no guarantees and the grass is not greener on the other side. it took me 6 months of deep depression to realize this. did i make the right choice? or i am just loosing time with dh. i am afraid of waisting all my youth with someone who doesn't love me and it treating me like second hand merchandise. i really thank you for your opinions!
ETA: Nothing happened between us, we only talked...
i had a really law self esteem, especially after given birth and was also feeling very lonely.
i got back to work and there something happened. the boss started to have a crush on me...he is with 14 years older, divorced. he gave me so much attention that his intentions were obvious to everyone. i was at first shocked. i didn't do/say anything that would show him my interest. but little by little i also started to have feelings for him. it was more than infatuation, i am sure. i felt safe with him. i really don't know how to explain it...but the feeling was there. i felt very guilty and stared to have a major depression. i decided that for my own sanity i had to quit and find another job. i did quit and i also cut off all contacts with him.
now, after 6 months have passed depression has lifted, i am ok if i can say so, but my marriage is still the same. dh still gets mad out of nothing, pick up fights.....so there are times at night when i close my eyes and wonder if i did the right thing quitting my job and letting him go. he was just too good for me, he really was out of my league and i cannot understand his interest in me at all. i know that life offers no guarantees and the grass is not greener on the other side. it took me 6 months of deep depression to realize this. did i make the right choice? or i am just loosing time with dh. i am afraid of waisting all my youth with someone who doesn't love me and it treating me like second hand merchandise. i really thank you for your opinions!
ETA: Nothing happened between us, we only talked...
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