Abit about me
I hook up with different girls, every weekend, I go out every weekend, never had a proper serious relationship ever
The situation
So I've been at my job for about 3 years, this girl started at my work place I say about beginning of this year, tbf when I saw her I don't know what it was I just liked something about her, ain't never happened before don't know wether it was because I wanted to hook up with her or what, so eventually we started talking I ended up with her number, it was a work night out, we both had quite abit to drink, I made a pass at her, but I never tried nothing more than a kiss with her, I wanted to stay the night with her, but I had to go but as soon as I left I started texting her I was saying how I wish I never left her etc, went to work it was all good between us not awkward, few weeks after was her birthday saw her out, I didn't try it with her this time I was just enjoying her company, she told me she liked me but I told her that I don't like her in that way so the next few days at work she distanced herself from me, I didn't even bother asking why because I had already knew the reason behind it, but I couldn't help myself but to flirt and banter with her it's always been there it's just natural between us and it just got to a point where we was touching feeling eachother at work, yeh work colleagues had stuff to say but who cares, so yeh I'm still out there every weekend hooking up with different girls from the clubs etc, this girl was in a relationship she was in it for a while with her man but tbf I didn't care, I still tried it on with her because I knew she liked me, she was going through a rough patch with her man till it came to a point where she ended it with him, I did feel a little guilty I thought I played a part in that because I knew she had a soft spot for me so I did kind of play on it. So I've bumped into her a few times I even introduced her to my mates which I've never introduced a girl to, they all seem to like her, when I've seen her out I've always complimented her because I have thought she's looked really nice, but she tries to get me jealous with other guys like looks at me when she's talking to them, yeh maybe to get my attention and tbf it does I do kind of get a little angry so I do the same with the girls and she gets angry and walks off, she's even argued with me at a club, I told her I am scared of commitment tbf I don't know why I am, maybe because I've never had a serious relationship and I can't let go of the attention I get off women.
The girl has told me quite a few times she likes me, I'm not sure if I do or wanna believe that I do, I mean she is down to earth, we get along, she's funny, bubbly, she's nice looking, she's caring she's not stuck up
But I've said I don't want to hurt her that's why I rather not put her in that situation were as if someone was to hand it on a plate I wouldn't say no
Me and the girl ain't talking, we had a argument, I do find it awkward, I did say some harsh things to her, I can't find myself to apologise to her I am stubborn, but it's best to leave things how they are ? I don't think will be talking anytime soon again ?
My point is what do I do ? I work with her ? I don't think I like her like that, but when I'm drunk I do find myself texting her warning to see her or lf I see her out I hate when she's talking to other guys so il try make her jealous by talking to other girls ?
But I can't let go of what I do on a normal basis ?
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