I am 29 and my girlfriend is 21. We have been dating for 1.5 years. She is the most amazing girl I have ever met, and we fell in love with one another quite fast. This is the first relationship that I have been in, and her second.
Basically, I made a fake profile on a dating website with a fake picture and was sexting girls, lots of girls, off and on through our entire relationship. It was something that I did before and just never stopped doing it when we go together.
I didn't consider it cheating at the time, but do now. To me it was a form of entertainment and sometimes porn. I work out of town a lot and have a boring job. There was never any intention of having any physical interaction with any of these girls, and certainly no emotional interaction... at least on my part. I realize that it is sick and I have made an appointment with a therapist.
Just over a week ago, she found the texts and flipped out over them. I showed her my profile and let her go through my email, history, etc to assure her that I wasn't physically cheating on her. She agreed not to leave me, but said she didn't think she could ever forgive me for this.
Basically, I know that I messed up big time, and betrayed the only person that I have ever really loved. I know that she loves me back, but is hurt. Now she tells me that she has nothing good to say about me, and that she feels like she doesn't know who I am, and she doesn't feel like my friend anymore. Every time she thinks a positive thought about me, this pops in her head. I understand this reaction but it breaks my heart. Any dispute or aggravation turns into us talking about this, and she seems like she is hopeless and unhappy with me overall.
My question is, what should I do to make things right?
What can I do so that she will forgive and trust me again?
I know that I will never do this type of thing again, but how can I convince her of that?
I refuse to lose this girl and am literally willing to do anything that I have to.
Basically, I made a fake profile on a dating website with a fake picture and was sexting girls, lots of girls, off and on through our entire relationship. It was something that I did before and just never stopped doing it when we go together.
I didn't consider it cheating at the time, but do now. To me it was a form of entertainment and sometimes porn. I work out of town a lot and have a boring job. There was never any intention of having any physical interaction with any of these girls, and certainly no emotional interaction... at least on my part. I realize that it is sick and I have made an appointment with a therapist.
Just over a week ago, she found the texts and flipped out over them. I showed her my profile and let her go through my email, history, etc to assure her that I wasn't physically cheating on her. She agreed not to leave me, but said she didn't think she could ever forgive me for this.
Basically, I know that I messed up big time, and betrayed the only person that I have ever really loved. I know that she loves me back, but is hurt. Now she tells me that she has nothing good to say about me, and that she feels like she doesn't know who I am, and she doesn't feel like my friend anymore. Every time she thinks a positive thought about me, this pops in her head. I understand this reaction but it breaks my heart. Any dispute or aggravation turns into us talking about this, and she seems like she is hopeless and unhappy with me overall.
My question is, what should I do to make things right?
What can I do so that she will forgive and trust me again?
I know that I will never do this type of thing again, but how can I convince her of that?
I refuse to lose this girl and am literally willing to do anything that I have to.
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