| As I've said below I came to my parents with dd because I could not stand the verbal abuse from h and son at home. H would set it up so son would get angry at me and not intervene. H would preach to me all the time how hard and unforgiving I am according to the priest. I am not allowed to reference his 3 year affair without a lecture from him. Dd went back home because she hated it at her grandparents and now she hates me as well, this is very painful, she texted me that I am irresponsible and that I guilted her out with my crying and that I never visit the house. My Md told me to go NC with my h, because he is very manipulative and will suck me back as he has before so I can't face visiting the house. 21 year old son texted me once, saying he wants his tuition money from me for university. I asked dd who is 13 out to dinner but she said her dad would have to come too, because I came to my parents house without telling anyone, and am depressed so he has to 'supervise' any visits I have with her. I said forget it. I won't have him acting like a parole officer. So dd hates me even more for not coming to the restaurant. The sick thing is that a big part of me wants to crawl home. I left with dd for 5 months last year and he wore me down and I went home. It's all I know and I am terrified of being alone. All my friend, family, therapists say not to go back but I have a sick need to go back. We've been together 30 years and I am 53. If I go back I'll be in an even weaker position, dd will hate me, son despises me and so does his live in gf. What is wrong with me? | |||
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