Don't really know where to start, but basically I've only been with my girlfriend just over 4 months though we've known each other since we were 14/15. Im now 20 and she's 18 and as of February we started talking again.
At first I was heistant, I didn't want a relationship, I much preferred being single, but the more I spoke to her and spent time with her, well I eventually came round and told her that she had changed my mind and I felt like I was ready for a relationship after all.
We got together mid March and we're happy. I am in the forces and was deployed for 7 weeks in April til end of May and that time away my feelings were really strong, I missed her so much, couldn't wait to get back and spoke on the phone every night.
Anyway I'm now deployed again, sent out 9th July only for 5 weeks this time, but I don't miss her at all, I've been thinking about us and where it's going and I don't think I'm ready to commit yet, she texts me and I read it but don't reply straight away like I used to because I don't miss her, I don't feel like I can't wait to get home, it's just like all my feelings have gone.
I don't want to drag out the relationship and end up hurting her, but I know she will be devastated if I end things, because I've shown no signs of not being interested it'll feel like it's just come out of the blue. Her ex treated her so badly and when we got together I told her that i'd never be like that, she's spoken about when she wants to move out and get married and have kids and all this and I talk about it to her but I'm now realising I'm in way too deep and it's not what I want.
Also I like her parents and her brother/sister, they're gunna think I'm a total douche bag that's just led their daughter/sister on.
I feel like I want you to tell me my own feelings and what to do but obviously that's not possibly, so I'm just asking what would you do and what is the right thing to do?
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