I've been dating a guy for three months. He's 6 years older than me. Overall, our relationship has been great so far. A month or so back I asked him about clarifying our relationship and he basically said he'd only had one serious relationship and didn't know whether he'd ever have another. I'm going to uni anyway in September, so I wasn't expecting a long term relationship, but wanted to know it was more than just sex/FWB. I lowered my expecitations at that point and just decided to enjoy it for what it was. Around about this time his behaviour changed. He started being more attentive, wanting to see me more, even more affectionate and doing things like taking me to nice places and paying for me (even though he's pretty skint.) Started opening up to me about his life and past. He admitted to me he suffers from depression. I detected a subtle change in him and wondered if he was getting more attached, but kept dismissing it due to what he'd said.
Anyway, come this weekend we spent it together and ended up getting pretty squiffy. Even before he'd had much he started saying things like 'You're such a sweetheart', you're such a wonderful person. He told me after splitting with his ex he swore he'd never have a serious relationship with a woman again (their relationship was awful and they split 5 years ago). But he then said I'd changed his mind about what he wanted in life, that I made him happy, that when we first we're dating he thought I'd be like the other girls he'd gone out with in recent years, but I wasn't and he felt differently about me. I brought up uni and he said he didn't want to hold me back, wanted be able to have the normal uni experience, but if it was his choice he'd stay with me even once I go. He'd also brought some holiday brochures which he told me to look at even before he'd had a drink and later asked if I wanted to go away with him in the summer.
Fast forward to the next morning and we get up - he keeps asking me what we talked about last night, saying he can only remember bits and pieces; he seems anxious and agitated, keeps asking me if there's something wrong. I told him a watered down version of the truth - that we were talking about his ex, but I left out all the stuff he said about me, 'cos I don't want to bruise his ego OR make him feel bad if he was just drunk and didn't mean it. I suspect he meant at least some of it as he's told me before he tends to be at his most honest.
He's been acting a bit shifty/cautious around me since - he seems to be treading carefully. I'm wondering whether he thinks he might have dropped the L-bomb? If so, this kind of worries me. When he said he didn't want a serious relationship I was initially slightly disappointed, but then realised it was for the best. But since his behaviours changed and then what he said over the weekend, I'm starting to worry that he's the one whose going to get hurt.
Should I approach what he said to me or just let it pass over? It was definitely the most vulnerable he's ever been with me and even if it was the whole truth, I don't want to embarrass him by bringing it up if he wants to keep his feelings hidden.
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