I am sorry, I deleted my other thread because I thought my H might be suspicious. Turns out that I was being paranoid. This is my only real outlet for the the things that are going on and I don't want to lose your support.
Anyway, I had my interview. It seemed to go well but I have not heard back. Maybe I should have pushed myself harder. Have applied to a few more jobs. Trying not to let this get me down.
Found out H was talking about me behind my back to my son after I explicitly asked him not to. Son does not want to confide much in me because he doesn't want his father to think he is breaking his trust. H has lectured me twice in the last week. Each time raising the level to pull at my guilt strings. Says my littlest shouldn't go to daycare for some low paying job. That when we divorce he'll hire a live in nanny for little DS....That if I am going to look for work I might as well look for a place to live...that 30 days seems more than enough time. I THINK he is just being a blowhard but is so hard...
H just asked me, sort of, for sex for the first time in nearly two months. It was just last night that he was threatening to kick me out in front of the kids. So I turned him down in probably not the nicest way.
I said "Really? After everything that has gone on? No."
He gave me that condescending look and said "Really. I thought you wanted to stay here. I guess I know where you stand."
He has been playing passive aggressive mind games lately, too. Now I am in tears. Again. Yay. :( It seems like that's all I can do.
Anyway, I had my interview. It seemed to go well but I have not heard back. Maybe I should have pushed myself harder. Have applied to a few more jobs. Trying not to let this get me down.
Found out H was talking about me behind my back to my son after I explicitly asked him not to. Son does not want to confide much in me because he doesn't want his father to think he is breaking his trust. H has lectured me twice in the last week. Each time raising the level to pull at my guilt strings. Says my littlest shouldn't go to daycare for some low paying job. That when we divorce he'll hire a live in nanny for little DS....That if I am going to look for work I might as well look for a place to live...that 30 days seems more than enough time. I THINK he is just being a blowhard but is so hard...
H just asked me, sort of, for sex for the first time in nearly two months. It was just last night that he was threatening to kick me out in front of the kids. So I turned him down in probably not the nicest way.
I said "Really? After everything that has gone on? No."
He gave me that condescending look and said "Really. I thought you wanted to stay here. I guess I know where you stand."
He has been playing passive aggressive mind games lately, too. Now I am in tears. Again. Yay. :( It seems like that's all I can do.
Put the internet to work for you.
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