Hii everyone,
I am desperately looking for any help. Infact I have looking looking for help in other sites similar to this. I don't if this one will be of any help.
I should start by saying I am a wife that cheated. Got caught. That was 3.5 years ago. Since then my husband has not had any sex with me. Infact he has not touched me in any way, not even holding my hand since then.
I have tried talking to him. I have cried night after night in front of him. I have asked to get us help through marriage counselling (he refuses, says no point in wasting money). When the children have not been in the house, I walked naked in front of him in an effort to seduce him(this thing I did not even do in front of my affair partner). I have stated in explicit and dirty words that I want him to do me real bad (his response to such talks has crushed me from inside). Infact I can't think of having left any stone unturned to just get him to bed with me. But he is apparently the proverbial unmoveable object...
He was not like this. We had an exciting sexual life till the discovery of my affair. He says thats why he feels more inadequate. I assured him he is not, it was only me and my selfish desires that led me to seek another man. Only if he will believe me...
This gets more difficult due to the fact he and I sleep separately. Since discovery, he asked me to sleep with our daughters. Then he built himself another room where he now sleeps.
My husband is very attractive. Men of his age start losing hairs, grow bellies, develop various health issues. But he is slender and athletic with thick bushy hairs. And no health issues even when he is a smoker. You would think he was still 33-35. He is one of those rare guys that get handsomer as the years pass by.
So yes, I am crazy for him physically. Infact if he is to right now walk in the room and ask me to come to bed, I will jump despite how he has rejected me these last 3+ years....
I am at a loss. I don't know if I will ever experience the sweetness that intimacy brings between couples. I just can't take this anymore...
There is more to the story which will explain what will give a more clear picture of why my husband finds me so disgusting and why I landed in an affair (there is a very weird reason for that). I will write when I have more time....
I am desperately looking for any help. Infact I have looking looking for help in other sites similar to this. I don't if this one will be of any help.
I should start by saying I am a wife that cheated. Got caught. That was 3.5 years ago. Since then my husband has not had any sex with me. Infact he has not touched me in any way, not even holding my hand since then.
I have tried talking to him. I have cried night after night in front of him. I have asked to get us help through marriage counselling (he refuses, says no point in wasting money). When the children have not been in the house, I walked naked in front of him in an effort to seduce him(this thing I did not even do in front of my affair partner). I have stated in explicit and dirty words that I want him to do me real bad (his response to such talks has crushed me from inside). Infact I can't think of having left any stone unturned to just get him to bed with me. But he is apparently the proverbial unmoveable object...
He was not like this. We had an exciting sexual life till the discovery of my affair. He says thats why he feels more inadequate. I assured him he is not, it was only me and my selfish desires that led me to seek another man. Only if he will believe me...
This gets more difficult due to the fact he and I sleep separately. Since discovery, he asked me to sleep with our daughters. Then he built himself another room where he now sleeps.
My husband is very attractive. Men of his age start losing hairs, grow bellies, develop various health issues. But he is slender and athletic with thick bushy hairs. And no health issues even when he is a smoker. You would think he was still 33-35. He is one of those rare guys that get handsomer as the years pass by.
So yes, I am crazy for him physically. Infact if he is to right now walk in the room and ask me to come to bed, I will jump despite how he has rejected me these last 3+ years....
I am at a loss. I don't know if I will ever experience the sweetness that intimacy brings between couples. I just can't take this anymore...
There is more to the story which will explain what will give a more clear picture of why my husband finds me so disgusting and why I landed in an affair (there is a very weird reason for that). I will write when I have more time....
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