So... I'm 18, will be 19 later this month.
I have had a boyfriend for 4 years on and off, we get along and have a laugh but things have got a bit stale. He doesn't pay much attention to me even when we're physically together, like we'll sit on the sofa and I'll try talking to him and he'll just be looking at pictures of guitars on his phone. We hardly ever have sex (like literally maybe once every three months) because I just feel like I'm being used as he always orgasms within two minutes then rolls over and goes to sleep. I've never had an orgasm from him. He's a lovely guy but I don't think he cares much for relationships. He works full time as a cleaner in a hospital but he has hopes of becoming a musician. I only get to see him once a week maximum. He's 21.
Then there's my best friend.
He's amazing, always up for a laugh, gets my sense of humour, always looking out for me, and we've been harmlessly flirting for a while (I thought he was gay up until a couple of weeks ago where he mentioned he likes a girl and I was like oh ok not gay then). We're both pretty extroverted and can break into non rehearsed but pretty in sync dance routines at any given moment. We're on the same college course so see each other 4 days a week, he's into interior design and set design for the stage and he's f****** brilliant at it. He's 17 (18 in March).
I'm so torn, I'd love to stay with my boyfriend but no matter how much I try to let him know I feel like I'm taken for granted, he never seems to really respond to it. I will never ever cheat on anybody but the back of my mind has been niggling me that my best friend is actually an amazing person (well I knew that anyway) and pretty hot too!
I either need to stay with my boyfriend and lose these feelings for my best friend, or break it off with my boyfriend and pursue a relationship with my best friend that might not even work out since I've never seen how he deals with a relationship.
Help?
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