I'm 26 married to my hubby of 2 years he's 33. I am extremely high drive. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a sex addict because I want it so much. We do have amazing sex which attributes to my desire. I want more and more. I have self esteem issues from my first marriage. He never ever wanted sex. We would go months with nothing. I wonder if he's gay. He made me have huge self esteem issues. My husband now is so much more open and loves me and truly made me feel beautiful and georgeous for the first time in my life. But he has also rejected me too! A lot. We've had the same fight of me being upset over and over. It's hard for me to initiate sex because my fear of rejection.
1. There are soooo many times I ask for sex. I hit on him all day, send nude pics, say I want him and he doesn't do anything
2. He never went down on me for the first year and a half. He did it less than 5 times. I cried and cried telling him it made me feel like a freak that he doesn't want to do that. I give him a BJ everyday.
He finally does it more now. But I resent him for feeling like I'm forcing him. We had to have 100 arguments before he did.
3. I never wear lingerie EVER. It's sooo terrifying of the fear of getting shot down. However one day I bought a blue Lacy number and he told me I looked beautiful and "accidentally feel asleep"
I felt so ashamed. I was humiliated. He doesn't have a sleep disorder. It's like Everytime I initiate something it pushes me away.
We have so many arguments about this. I'm defiantly resenting him and it's getting so hard to keep forgiving him. Everytime he rejects me it truly chips apart of me. There's so much previous baggage there from my ex.
Just wanting to vent and get suggestions to get past this
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1. There are soooo many times I ask for sex. I hit on him all day, send nude pics, say I want him and he doesn't do anything
2. He never went down on me for the first year and a half. He did it less than 5 times. I cried and cried telling him it made me feel like a freak that he doesn't want to do that. I give him a BJ everyday.
He finally does it more now. But I resent him for feeling like I'm forcing him. We had to have 100 arguments before he did.
3. I never wear lingerie EVER. It's sooo terrifying of the fear of getting shot down. However one day I bought a blue Lacy number and he told me I looked beautiful and "accidentally feel asleep"
I felt so ashamed. I was humiliated. He doesn't have a sleep disorder. It's like Everytime I initiate something it pushes me away.
We have so many arguments about this. I'm defiantly resenting him and it's getting so hard to keep forgiving him. Everytime he rejects me it truly chips apart of me. There's so much previous baggage there from my ex.
Just wanting to vent and get suggestions to get past this
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