I don't love my boyfriend and don't find him attractive sexually.
This is a three year relationship and we live together and have a 16 month old together.
I met him online at a time in my life when I was a bit lonely. I was waiting to start my masters so had no job, no money but did have a nice council flat which was my only positive.
I wanted to meet someone so when I went on our first date I tried to see past the fact I wasn't attracted to him and eventually we ended up dating. He was clearly mad about me from day one and loves me unconditionally. He's a great guy essentially but there are so many things I can't stand.
Educationally he is so different to me. He had no education and is In a rubbish job without any motivation to leave it. He doesn't like his job and it some of four he has had since I met him. He doesn't know what he wants in life. I am a highly motivated person. I am at uni, working hard to qualify in a career I love.
He can be lazy. He doesn't help that much around the house although he is quite good with our son.
He doesn't support me much financially. I am a student who has had to watch the pennies and move to a council house and buy everything for it whilst still studying and lookig after a baby. His parents are great and help but he hasn't financially helped much.
I find these characteristics so unattractive. But if I loved him I guess I wouldn't care about them. I know they are superficial.
i have left him before and he has convinced me to come back . I do it largely for my son who i don't want growing up without his dad at home. But I'm not happy. i don't think I would be happy as a single parent either at the moment with the stress I'm under.
But being single in the future doesn't bother me too much.
any advice?
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