Ok so I am a twenty year old Chinese American college student. I've been told I'm very different from most Asian kids in terms of my personality and how I am in general. I grew up in a town with a mostly white population and I was bullied as a kid but not for my ethnicity. Now that I am in college, I have developed my group of friends, a group that I trust and believe in. There was a post I read on this site about an Indian kid who doesn't like his heritage. Now, I don't hate being Chinese, I think if anything it helps me see things differently than my friends, who mostly Caucasian or Black, and they appreciate my friendship as well as my viewpoints.
But the one thing I don't like is my Chinese family. I have heard people discuss how their families are crazy and that they argue all the time and blah blah blah. We've all heard it before and yes everyone has their family problems. Starting in 9th grade, I really started to dislike my mom's side of the family (I love my mom to death, she divorced my dad and remarried a year later). Members of my family would come over from China and they never understood that in the US things aren't the same in terms of transportation and culture. On top of that, when my Grandma and Aunt were here it almost seemed like there was an screaming match every other day. These arguments were so bad that if we didn't live a mile deep into the woods with no neighbors, we'd have had the cops called on us every other day. With my American Step family, if there were disagreements, they could just take a drive and go somewhere for some time until everyone cooled off. Not my Chinese family. So that's that . Oh and one of my cousins crashed a car (a car that was supposed to be mine) into a church.
Then there's my cousin, and I honestly believe that I hate him. Six, that's right, SIX days after he arrived here he started a major argument with my mom that got me involved to the point where I wanted to hit him. I couldn't cause he was in the front car seat and I was in the back. But that's not it. A day before this argument, he pointed an unloaded gun down range while my stepfather was at the target. I pushed the rifle down to the ground and yelled, "What the hell are you doing??" "IT'S UNLOADED" he replies. I could go on and on about our disagreements. He thinks he's the **** cause he hangs out with the "Cool" kids at school (in other words, the tools who won't care about him past high school), thinks he can boss me around, believes he's some kind of genius cause he read some stuff on the internet about things like the US Law System, and I get blamed for messes he leaves out even though I have cleaned up my act a lot. And I can't bring myself to even start to like him be cause we had such a rocky start on top of his elitism.
My question is this: Can anyone on this site say that my dislike for people from China and my Cousin is understandable? Or am I just an ass?
PS: Thank you to anyone who actually reads all this.
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