Hello all
little background.
Been married 12 years this coming February, together 16.
We are only 32, and have a 13 & 10 year old.
There are trust issues, never ever cheating or infidelity however I've broken some pretty serious financial trust boundaries. I own it, I've messed up.
3 years ago our 13 son suffered a fully blown seizure and within days diagnosed epileptic. The financial problems started around the same time. I started seeing a therapist who directed me to a psychiatrist to start medication for the manic side of Bipolar disorder. Probably triggered (always been underlining but brought out) by my son's diagnosis and emotional trauma of that.
I was taking paxil which eliminated my sexual desires and made me a zombie. Zero emotions. I could care less what went on around me etc.
About 4 weeks ago the Dr decided to take me off of paxil and switch my meds. The switch caused full blown withdrawals and the new meds triggered a psychotic episode. For about 24 hours I was a complete lunatic.
I came off all meds to see a new Dr. Hopefully one who could get my meds straight. The new Dr felt like I was over medicated and that I should try therapy, breathing techniques, etc before jumping too medication.
Well my husband is not ok with this. In fact I can't speak or show any emotion without it resulting in a "I can tell your off your meds". I can't show anger or frustration, sadness or lust. If I'm happy and laughing life is grand but if I'm not the zombie I was for the past three years it's resulting in me being "off my meds". I'm so frustrated......so frustrated.
He is very much a mommas boy. We both work Monday thru Friday jobs. He leaves before the kids and I wake up and he usually walks in just in time for dinner. This weekend he spent 6 hours at his parents house and nthen another 6 today (this is typical). When he
This morning I was angry and frustrated. When is it my turn? But the second I show any emotion it's because I'm off my meds. I truly feel like my marriage has been a zombie field for three years and now that I'm not we are falling apart. Opinions please.......I need some help. And FYI he attends every therapy session with me.
little background.
Been married 12 years this coming February, together 16.
We are only 32, and have a 13 & 10 year old.
There are trust issues, never ever cheating or infidelity however I've broken some pretty serious financial trust boundaries. I own it, I've messed up.
3 years ago our 13 son suffered a fully blown seizure and within days diagnosed epileptic. The financial problems started around the same time. I started seeing a therapist who directed me to a psychiatrist to start medication for the manic side of Bipolar disorder. Probably triggered (always been underlining but brought out) by my son's diagnosis and emotional trauma of that.
I was taking paxil which eliminated my sexual desires and made me a zombie. Zero emotions. I could care less what went on around me etc.
About 4 weeks ago the Dr decided to take me off of paxil and switch my meds. The switch caused full blown withdrawals and the new meds triggered a psychotic episode. For about 24 hours I was a complete lunatic.
I came off all meds to see a new Dr. Hopefully one who could get my meds straight. The new Dr felt like I was over medicated and that I should try therapy, breathing techniques, etc before jumping too medication.
Well my husband is not ok with this. In fact I can't speak or show any emotion without it resulting in a "I can tell your off your meds". I can't show anger or frustration, sadness or lust. If I'm happy and laughing life is grand but if I'm not the zombie I was for the past three years it's resulting in me being "off my meds". I'm so frustrated......so frustrated.
He is very much a mommas boy. We both work Monday thru Friday jobs. He leaves before the kids and I wake up and he usually walks in just in time for dinner. This weekend he spent 6 hours at his parents house and nthen another 6 today (this is typical). When he
This morning I was angry and frustrated. When is it my turn? But the second I show any emotion it's because I'm off my meds. I truly feel like my marriage has been a zombie field for three years and now that I'm not we are falling apart. Opinions please.......I need some help. And FYI he attends every therapy session with me.
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