Since I can remember I've been a very jealous person. I find someone who can do/has/has achieved something better than me and I obsess about it, try and justify it in my head and if I can't find any bad points about their situation then I resent them. This is especially when i don't feel they 'deserve' success. I know it's linked to my perfectionism and the ridiculous standards I set upon myself, it's as if I can't deal with the fact that some people are in a better position than me yet have tried less hard.
Take today for example, one of my best friends was applying for a great job in another city. Of course the logical part of my brain wished her all the best, but the jealous part was hoping she didn't get it. It took me a long slog to get even an entry level job and now she's just walked into this one without even trying. I only have feelings of injustice and jealousy about it now, and can't be happy for her.
It's really damaging. Especially with things like Facebook. Constant thoughts of 'what did SHE do to deserve THAT?!' go through my mind.
Put the internet to work for you.
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