Thank you for reading this long thread, it is complicated. I will appreciate any genuien and kind advice.
Most other people would say that I am a good looking guy.
Tall, nearly 190 cm; and fit, no fat, only 72 kg. imagine that
I am definitely thoughful, considerate and sensitive, definitely respect girls enough
Dress well, good manners, bit shy though, but not after I get to know someone a bit.
Here is the bit im concerned about:
Anxiety, self-concious, low confidence. sometimes
sociable, good talker, brave, some other times.
This is due to the environment I grew up in, I was raised by grandparents. And my dad was never in the picture. So I guess, somehow, inevitably, i lack that aspect that mindset you learn from you dad.
I did not live with mom for a long time, too. its complicated. Deep inside, i try to cover my insecurity, because the hell i know for a fact that i am different.
When their dad took them out for holiday, when their dad shouted at the boys 'come up, be a man, express yourself' sort of stuff. When that was happening with them, I was alone.
When other boys were embeded with the concept of 'confidence, humour, drama and all other boy stuff'. I was alone.
But today, I am a changed man, I recognise what I lack, my insecurity, my biggest fear in the universe of worrying about being judged by other as the inferior.
I am hugely conflicted, I am confident some of the times, I lose it some other times, often, for very small reasons.
But people do say I am charming, kind, thougtful and good-looking.
how do i overcome this.
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