Yes, two years and I still love her so much. We have never spoken since, though in the first couple of months I tried to get her back - desperately. At the very end, she made it clear that she doesn't want to ever hear from me again. And yes, it was my fault all along. I didn't really appreciate her to the extent she deserved, nor did I give back as much as I should have done. In my defense, I can say that it was a very hard period in my life. Yet, the first six months our relationship was like a dream - for both of us I think. Everything went downwards so rapidly that I wasn't really able to foresee what will happen. And therefore, I was unable to handle it in time.
We are living in different cities at this point. I am also sure that she is completely over it by now, if it even meant that much to her. She also has somebody else now. I don't, nor do I feel that I can. And I am not asking how to get her back, for I am sure that it isn't possible. What I was wondering about, if perhaps somebody had a similar experience? She is the best thing that happened to me, and the best moments of my life are connected to her. I would love to forget everything, but I can't. I still have dreams about her, good and bad. And I still panic when I see somebody who resembles her, or when there is a woman going by that smells like her, or if I hear one of "our" songs, or during many other things. This has been ruining my life for two years now, and I am powerless to do anything about it. Therefore, I will appreciate advice of any kind. Thank you!
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