I have been posting here in the recent months, being extremely vague of my problem.
I want to post what is really happening with my marriage.
My wife informed me now recently that she had been unhappy the last 4 years.
She had been apathetic since, and even married me a year and a half ago.
But she was feeling emotionless, unhappy, and lost the deep love she had for me.
So she had an affair 3 months after the wedding to date, which now ended.
It ended because I told her to choose him or me, and she chose me. However, she said that she loved him more than me, and found happiness and deep love again with him - which she lost with me.
She said that she wanted to leave me for him, but she was a coward and couldn't. She still loves me, but not "deeply".
She feels as if she sacrificed her happiness for me, and fears that she is now going to either feel the pain for the rest of the life, or feel apathy again. She feels no hope.
She feels this happiness and deep love for me though only seldom, such as when I take her our to romantic dinners and such.
But she says it's like a spark in a giant void of darkness.
I cannot lose her, because I will not survive it.
My life is over, and I'm totally destroyed. I feel as if the only way out is for me to disappear and let everyone be happy. I am in the way.
I have an anxiety disorder, and I'm co-dependent. But I am now seeing help for it, and things are improving.
Please tell me, can this be fixed via marriage counseling? Is there hope? Or am I to face the joke of a failure my life had turned into.
Sorry for the negativity.
I want to post what is really happening with my marriage.
My wife informed me now recently that she had been unhappy the last 4 years.
She had been apathetic since, and even married me a year and a half ago.
But she was feeling emotionless, unhappy, and lost the deep love she had for me.
So she had an affair 3 months after the wedding to date, which now ended.
It ended because I told her to choose him or me, and she chose me. However, she said that she loved him more than me, and found happiness and deep love again with him - which she lost with me.
She said that she wanted to leave me for him, but she was a coward and couldn't. She still loves me, but not "deeply".
She feels as if she sacrificed her happiness for me, and fears that she is now going to either feel the pain for the rest of the life, or feel apathy again. She feels no hope.
She feels this happiness and deep love for me though only seldom, such as when I take her our to romantic dinners and such.
But she says it's like a spark in a giant void of darkness.
I cannot lose her, because I will not survive it.
My life is over, and I'm totally destroyed. I feel as if the only way out is for me to disappear and let everyone be happy. I am in the way.
I have an anxiety disorder, and I'm co-dependent. But I am now seeing help for it, and things are improving.
Please tell me, can this be fixed via marriage counseling? Is there hope? Or am I to face the joke of a failure my life had turned into.
Sorry for the negativity.
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