Hi,
Throughout all of Year 11, I knew that my friends and I were all going to quite a good local school - there were no better alternatives anyway so the situation seemed optimal for me. The friends which I was going to go to school with are my true friends and desperately do not want to lose them as I don't this I will ever enjoy the company of friends in the way I enjoy the company of these.
After, collecting my results, my friends and I went to enroll to the school and all was good. When I got home after a long day of celebrations, my mum spontaneously urged me to call the grammer school in which I had applied 6 months ago (and had not been offered a place) to see if they would be willing to give me a place - as my results may have been competitive (I got 10 A*s). It turns out that late admissions do exist so the following day I went and handed in my papers to try my luck. Unexpectedly I got a call from the Grammer school giving me the offer I wanted. After many hours of though I accepted their offer, leaving my friends at the poorer school - as the Grammer school was much more superior. I did this with the idea that I would be going to an institution which would allow me to be with intellectual people, meet new and interesting characters, provide good education ofcourse and allow me to experience a new culture which I had not had I my previous 'hood' school. I also promised myself that I would stay good friends with my old friends as I truly did value them.
I started the grammer school which very positive thoughts. The induction day was mildly awkward as I would expect it to be. After a day off I then started proper school (I have studied for 3 whole days now). However, judging by what has happened so far I have been dissapointed. I am not socially awkward and can talk on a variety of subjects however I cannot seem to break through the atmosphere here. People are ignorant of externals (furthered by the fact that I am the only one from my old school), they make no effort to make me welcome and just generally I have been feeling lonely and as if I will make no friends for 2 whole years and just be left dreading school.
I do not expect people to add me to their groups instantly but at least respond positively when I try and break through. I have also been seriously disappointed by the intellectual quality of the people. In constrast my friends at the other school have not started lessons yet and are having tonnes of fun - as they present it, people there are very friendly and receptive and in spite of having established cliques are very welcoming. They look forward to school and seem to be having fun.
What should I do? Should I move to the relatively quite poor school and enjoy time with my friends? Or should I stay and receive the superior education and hope that the social issues are just caused by the dreadful first moments at a new place - whilst keeping in touch with my old friends?
PS - Please keep in mind I have been there for only 3 days and that I am probably somewhat exaggerating as it seems that there is endless fun in store for my friends and that for me all that awaits is sitting in a corner during free periods.
Help please,
THANKS
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