I have never posted online before. But I am stuck. I have been married for 20 years. Things seem to be getting progressively worse on my end. A couple of months ago we had a genuine awakening in our relationship. Not only did our intimacy level become deeper but our day to day interactions became happier and we really began to explore each other intimately. It was bliss for about 9 days. And then he completely back away. He got a hemorrhoid. So I understood and backed off, purchased every known healing agent there was. The next weekend his back hurt, the next weekend his head hurt, the next weekend he had a sinus infection, the next weekend more hemorrhoids, the last 2 weekends his back has bothered him. At each and every ailment I have been the one making dr's appointments or buying medicine or researching cause and effect, he has made no move to ease his own suffering. He says he is in too much pain to be intimate, but apparently not too much to look at porn and masturbate. His behavior makes me feel like I have swallowed broken glass. Also I did do something bad and I have been paying for it ever since. I looked at his facebook page and discover he has told two other women that they were the "one that got away" I am appalled at my behavior but destroyed by what he has said. If I am not the one, what the hell am I doing? I do everything for this man from the shopping, the household, making his appointments, paying the bills, fixing his lunches and dinner, initiating sex, whatever is asked of me I try. What is wrong with me?
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