Well not to beat a dead horse however, in the last few weeks I had received emails from the ex...After no contact in many many months... So enough about that...
However, my issue is, this has triggered many feelings of loss and loneliness and resentment, and in a way this chips away at me... I know it should not but for some reason I am letting get to me.
For some reason, I feel like, calling her.. or at least visiting the idea..
I am usually real strong however in the last week or so, I feel like I am slipping backwards. Not sure why,..
Trying to sort this out, what questions pop into my head are, am I lonely, do I miss the relationship, has spending too much time at work caused me not to face this as much as I should? ... Heck I am at work right now.
In the past I just needed to get busy with something to distract me...
I thought I was doing so well, and felt solid.
Apparently not as much as I thought. Is this normal?
In a way I guess I am asking for opinions and directions.
However, my issue is, this has triggered many feelings of loss and loneliness and resentment, and in a way this chips away at me... I know it should not but for some reason I am letting get to me.
For some reason, I feel like, calling her.. or at least visiting the idea..
I am usually real strong however in the last week or so, I feel like I am slipping backwards. Not sure why,..
Trying to sort this out, what questions pop into my head are, am I lonely, do I miss the relationship, has spending too much time at work caused me not to face this as much as I should? ... Heck I am at work right now.
In the past I just needed to get busy with something to distract me...
I thought I was doing so well, and felt solid.
Apparently not as much as I thought. Is this normal?
In a way I guess I am asking for opinions and directions.
Put the internet to work for you.
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