Last night my boyfriend stayed over and we were watching a film, I began drinking, I am going through a bad time so was crying and very emotional. Suddenly I said to him 'why don't you just leave'. This was like midnight, there were no trains back home so he couldn't. He explained this to me and I kept shouting at him to leave. I kept trying to push him out the door. I kept telling him that I didn't want him there, I didn't see the point in him being there because he wasn't helping me and he annoys me just when I look at him.
I have no idea where all these things came from, I suppose I was just emotional, but I just couldn't stop myself being horrible. I calmed down eventually and in the morning I felt awful because I can't imagine how he must have felt, that he was unwanted but couldn't do anything about it. He has forgiven me and told me he understands that i was very upset so wasn't in control of what I said. But I can't believe I did it and I don't know why ..
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