I have been in a relationship for 8 years. We had a rocky relationship as he was often disrespectful, wouldn't pay his way, did what he pleased etc. We have lived apart since Sept last year but still stayed together.
Earlier this year I was told he had a girlfriend. He denied it and said they only slept together twice. We decided to give it another go and he promised he wasn't seeing her again. The initial swirl of romance didnt last that long and I wondered if I'd made the right choice. Over the next several months I made my best effort to be with him, calling over to his house, texting etc...he usually wasn't home and his phone was always turned off, out of battery, left in someones car or broken in some way. I look back at the texts now and see every excuse possible as to where he was. I believed him, although suspiciously.
A couple of weeks ago he said he was coming to see me that night. He never arrived and I haven't seen or heard from him since. I was so worried about his whereabouts I asked everyone he knew and they hadn't seen him nor could contact him. I went to his house only to find everything gone. I texted a family member of his and they replied "is that you (the other woman's name)?"
So over the last week its all come out, he's been seeing this woman all along, and now moved in with her, is unable to be contacted and couldn't even face me to finish it. He's lied to me all the way through and kept me on the side. He's taken her out to places and introduced her to his kids. He'd told everyone we were split up.
I am devestated to say the least. I love this guy so much but can't seem to even function in daily life. I feel obsessed, like I can't think of anything else. I need to know every tiny bit of information, including about her. I feel I have to know everything to piece together the whole truth.
I secretly hope he will regret his decision and want me back but I know that won't happen and I know I shouldn't even contemplate this. I am upset to know they are very much alike, and that they could be a good match. On the other hand she is renown for stealing other peoples partners and overlapping relationships, and he's obviously a liar and a cheat, so I hope they kill each other.
Is it wrong of me to be so screwed up? I seriously think I have a screw loose. I just want this pain to go away and I don't know where to start :(
Earlier this year I was told he had a girlfriend. He denied it and said they only slept together twice. We decided to give it another go and he promised he wasn't seeing her again. The initial swirl of romance didnt last that long and I wondered if I'd made the right choice. Over the next several months I made my best effort to be with him, calling over to his house, texting etc...he usually wasn't home and his phone was always turned off, out of battery, left in someones car or broken in some way. I look back at the texts now and see every excuse possible as to where he was. I believed him, although suspiciously.
A couple of weeks ago he said he was coming to see me that night. He never arrived and I haven't seen or heard from him since. I was so worried about his whereabouts I asked everyone he knew and they hadn't seen him nor could contact him. I went to his house only to find everything gone. I texted a family member of his and they replied "is that you (the other woman's name)?"
So over the last week its all come out, he's been seeing this woman all along, and now moved in with her, is unable to be contacted and couldn't even face me to finish it. He's lied to me all the way through and kept me on the side. He's taken her out to places and introduced her to his kids. He'd told everyone we were split up.
I am devestated to say the least. I love this guy so much but can't seem to even function in daily life. I feel obsessed, like I can't think of anything else. I need to know every tiny bit of information, including about her. I feel I have to know everything to piece together the whole truth.
I secretly hope he will regret his decision and want me back but I know that won't happen and I know I shouldn't even contemplate this. I am upset to know they are very much alike, and that they could be a good match. On the other hand she is renown for stealing other peoples partners and overlapping relationships, and he's obviously a liar and a cheat, so I hope they kill each other.
Is it wrong of me to be so screwed up? I seriously think I have a screw loose. I just want this pain to go away and I don't know where to start :(
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