I'm not really sure where to begin with this, but I guess I'll start by saying I recently came out of a relationship of 4 years and also lost about 80% of my friends.
In terms of the ex boyfriend, let's just say we grew apart, he grew up and mature as I spiralled further into my depression (and thus my personality began to grow more and more negative; insecure, sad all the time, paranoid... things like that)... and the fact that he'd stayed with someone like me for so long was a miracle to me. But anyway, things happened and now I've lost him.
Now, in terms of the 80% of my friends that I lost, I recently hit another bad phase and as a result of that ended up snapping at a friend out of the blue, in front of the rest of the friendship group (although I didn't say anything horrible, I just raised my voice) and although I feel like I wanted to stand up for myself and try to resolve things after the altercation, it appears that, that was probably the last straw for them, since afterwards although there were apologies and for a while I was told "don't worry about it too much", I woke up the next day with every one of them ignoring me and a couple of them deleting me off everything. I know it's my fault, so I'm just accepting things as they are...
But I suppose the point of this thread is... is there really nobody on the planet that could handle someone like me? I know I'm (God I hate saying it but..) "depressed" and for 8 years I never went to get help (but I started to this year after getting to a point where I knew I couldn't go on by myself anymore), will everyone that I meet in the future truly get tired of me as I always think they will? Will they always give up on me and turn their back on me? Can relationships where one person mentally isn't 100%, possible to work...?
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