Yeah, you read that right...it took me a lot of courage to make this post so please do not say bad things about me. I know i'm a horrible person for this but I don't know what to do. H and I have been married for 4 years (1 child 1 yr old), I'm 23 and he's 24, BIL is 26.
H and I married because of my parent's wishes. I really wanted to please them and they wanted me to marry him. I did so even though he was abusive. My parents knew about this but told him to stop and saw to it that he went to a therapist. Also I thought I loved him. So we got married.
I had a huge crush on BIL ever since I met him, which was after H and I married. I was highly attracted to him from the first time I saw him, much more attracted than I am to H. He has always been very nice to me and we got to where we would text a lot (not like that, we would talk about H a lot) and we became close until I couldn't afford my phone anymore since H quit his job.
So my attraction for him has only grown through the years, and now I can't help but fantasize about him very often. I always tell myself to stop and it happens without me meaning to. I would never do anything to hurt my H and BIL has never come onto me or anything, so there's nothing going on between us and I'd never do anything. I know the common advice for something like this is to stay away from the person, but it is not possible in this case since he lives 10 minutes away from us.
He is coming over tonight to spend the night for the first time in a while (since before my fantasies started) and idk what to do. Should I ignore him and spend the whole time upstairs? Should I try to talk to him and treat him like nobody special or what? What should I do in general about this? Again like I said I would never make any kind of move, physical or emotional.
H and I married because of my parent's wishes. I really wanted to please them and they wanted me to marry him. I did so even though he was abusive. My parents knew about this but told him to stop and saw to it that he went to a therapist. Also I thought I loved him. So we got married.
I had a huge crush on BIL ever since I met him, which was after H and I married. I was highly attracted to him from the first time I saw him, much more attracted than I am to H. He has always been very nice to me and we got to where we would text a lot (not like that, we would talk about H a lot) and we became close until I couldn't afford my phone anymore since H quit his job.
So my attraction for him has only grown through the years, and now I can't help but fantasize about him very often. I always tell myself to stop and it happens without me meaning to. I would never do anything to hurt my H and BIL has never come onto me or anything, so there's nothing going on between us and I'd never do anything. I know the common advice for something like this is to stay away from the person, but it is not possible in this case since he lives 10 minutes away from us.
He is coming over tonight to spend the night for the first time in a while (since before my fantasies started) and idk what to do. Should I ignore him and spend the whole time upstairs? Should I try to talk to him and treat him like nobody special or what? What should I do in general about this? Again like I said I would never make any kind of move, physical or emotional.
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