Just broke up with girlfriend yesterday and feel somewhat depressed. A week ago I went of doctors as I had a nervous breakdown. Due to the relationship, my trust issues, and my thinking she'd cheated. Me and her were completely different personalities- and she was very sexually experienced and highly strung. She'd go from one extreme to the other, very difficult to deal with emotionally.
Yesterday I had gone to see her, and travelled 3hrs, with the intention of ending it. It was making me ill mentally. So much so that I was an emotional wreck, sure, I love her but I just feel like she maybe wasn't truthful to me or just wanted me around for the affection.
We'd had such a great day, it was possibly one of the best days we shared together. I then ended the day sitting her down and discussing calmly that I thought we'd just be better as friends. She of course didn't agree, and wanted it to work, but seemed somewhat relieved. As though she was more happier. She then told me at least she didn't need to keep sending me images of her texts, Facebook and personal stuff (since she'd been sending me this to prove to me there was nobody else).
It was over in 20mins, I left her, she kissed me on the neck and hugged me before I left for the platform. Was pretty odd, that things were over just like that.
I am emotional right now and feel broken hearted, even though I ended it, I feel like I'm not in the right place to be with anyone.
I keep seeing her Facebook messages saying things like "when you stop looking you find things" and other suggestive stuff. I can't help but read into it. Does she care or ever cared?
Am I just letting get off and do whatever she was doing behind my back? She posts constantly since yesterday, I'm not sure if this is an indication of her upset.
How do I try and get over her?
Put the internet to work for you.
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