My husband and I recently went through some very difficult issues--That left me with a decision to make. He became addicted to opiates--without my knowledge because of my work schedule--
Months prior, he lost his job--and has been unable to find steady work since. This caused a real strain on our marriage because of finances--little did I know all the money he was spending was going towards his habit. The straw that broke the camels back was when he stole money I had put back to be able to buy groceries. The following week--after he got a new job, he worked one day and never went back--This caused a huge fight between us which led to him finally admitting his problem. Which also turned into him losing his job.
We got married young, we were both 19 and thought we knew what life and true love was--We didn't know how to take care of each other. We've been separated twice and both times were him walking out on me--leaving me devastated. I'm ready to walk away--to find myself again--I'm worried that he will try to hurt himself. I do love him--But i'm not in love with him anymore..He can sense that i'm not in it 100% anymore and is trying--But it's disgusting me--I look at him when he's trying and all i can think is "why haven't you done this the 6 years we've been married?" Is it bad for me to want him to leave me again so I can end our marriage once and for all? I'm broken, I'm tired, I've lost myself in a young love that turned into a toxic marriage...Any advice?
Months prior, he lost his job--and has been unable to find steady work since. This caused a real strain on our marriage because of finances--little did I know all the money he was spending was going towards his habit. The straw that broke the camels back was when he stole money I had put back to be able to buy groceries. The following week--after he got a new job, he worked one day and never went back--This caused a huge fight between us which led to him finally admitting his problem. Which also turned into him losing his job.
We got married young, we were both 19 and thought we knew what life and true love was--We didn't know how to take care of each other. We've been separated twice and both times were him walking out on me--leaving me devastated. I'm ready to walk away--to find myself again--I'm worried that he will try to hurt himself. I do love him--But i'm not in love with him anymore..He can sense that i'm not in it 100% anymore and is trying--But it's disgusting me--I look at him when he's trying and all i can think is "why haven't you done this the 6 years we've been married?" Is it bad for me to want him to leave me again so I can end our marriage once and for all? I'm broken, I'm tired, I've lost myself in a young love that turned into a toxic marriage...Any advice?
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