The other night I was at a club followed by a house party (I only knew one person but hadn't seen anything of her for the last couple hours) and was heavily intoxicated... a bit of a state really. I dont think I was spiked exactly but think I may have been on something as I'd spent a lot of the night drinking random drinks off the side (foolish I know) and a short while later my teeth were grinding all over the show. Even the guy I was around later on commented on it.
The party got to the point where it was only me and this guy still awake so we went back to his (I presumed to carry on drinking). On the way he was asking questions to see if I was gay... which I told him I wasn't. I thought it seemed like a pretty random thing to be asking but didn't even think anything of it at the time.
I must have passed out not very long after getting back to his and the next thing I know I'm half asleep and this guy has got his hands all over me, undoes my shirt and starts masturbating me. I was just kind of lying there lifeless... paralysed almost out of the madness of the situation.
It sort of went on for a bit and then stopped (I forget why, maybe because I wasn't up for it). Then he started again a short while later and kept kissing me and even grabbed my hand to start masturbating him. He then started giving me oral but after a couple seconds it dawned on me that I was in a situation that I really didn't want to be in. So I got him to stop and then we both just went to sleep.
The whole situation is a pretty blurry memory but I find it sickening just thinking about it, and kind of disgusted with myself for not stopping him right at the start, because I can safely say I'm not attracted to guys
I've no idea what to do I imagine it's best to just be glad it didn't go any further and to try and forget about it. Would there be any risk of STIs from the brief couple seconds of him giving oral? Has anyone else ever had problems like this?
If this isn't a sign for me to start drinking more responsibly then I dunno what is really
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