I went to a family reunion at the weekend, when we were all drunk the conversation turned to the fact i'm 24 and i've never had a girlfriend (i'm the only single person in my entire extended family). A couple of my uncle/aunts friends said I was a bit 'camp' and suddenly they kept asking if I was gay. I was absolutely mortified.
I've always assumed that no girl has ever liked me because I look disgusting. I have no idea how to show interest/flirt because i've never believed in myself. Every girl has a few guys after her and there will always be someone better than me. However this has made me feel even worse.
I'm not a LAD and never will be. I can see that I do some things that most men don't do, for example I have a lot of female friends and most of my best friends are girls. We constantly text and i'll happily ring/meet up with them and just talk for hours. I've always been told i'm a nice person and can't really understand why. Then there's other things e.g I prefer spirits to beer, i'm quite ''emotional'' and i've been to see Taylor Swift live.
My confidence was already 0 and this has just made it so much worse. I'm absolutely desperate for a relationship, all my friends are taken and it makes me feel like **** seeing how happy they are and knowing i'll never have anyone in my life like that. My only experience is a couple of drunken snogs in a club, never been on a date or anything. I don't think I have ever met a girl who I wanted a relationship with and after this i've just lost any hope of ever meeting someone.
What do I do here? :sad:
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