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Feeling defeated/don't have the guts to leave

Feeling so defeated today. I am one month into discovering the most recent of multiple EA's my husband has been having. Mostly electronic but we also know these women personally. He is trying to smooth things over with me. I just feel like I am caving to him by letting him stay and promising me he won't do it any more. He has had NO CONSEQUENCES, except me outing him to his family, but it is hard for me to know how that has affected the situation. He was really mad at me for 2 days - would barely speak to me - and now he acts like everything is fine. It is very difficult for me to stand up to him and be strong. I am trying but I SO MUCH want the comfort of that 100% trust I had in him before he did these things. HOW DO I GET THAT BACK?!?!? He does not think he needs counseling, but I think he does. He has agreed to marriage counseling but it was a disaster the last time we tried it, because (1) he wasn't on board at all and (2) the counselor was just a terrible "fit" for us. We had a huge argument last night, after having a great time watching a very funny movie together. He says he is trying to do right by me, but I just keep beating this thing over his head. I guess I just need some words of encouragement from you guys...I am so tired of thinking about this every minute of every day...

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