I'm just gonna spill the beans on myself. This is for my healing purposes. Join in if you like.
So it's been approx 1.5ys since d day. And my marriage is going well. There are still issues that need ironing out, but every marriage has issues.
That's not what I want to talk about anyway. What I want to talk about is me.
How this has affected my life as the BS.
I am not going to get through it all in one post, so bare with me as it may take several for me to get what I need to say out.
Prior to the affair I was a confident, relatively happy person with real dreams and genuine trust and love for people.
Now I am none of that. In fact, I hate myself. I disgust myself. If I saw me on the street I would spit in my face.
Yup. That's where I am at. Weird how one event can change everything. Not only did I have to battle to save my marriage, I now have to battle to save myself.
So it's been approx 1.5ys since d day. And my marriage is going well. There are still issues that need ironing out, but every marriage has issues.
That's not what I want to talk about anyway. What I want to talk about is me.
How this has affected my life as the BS.
I am not going to get through it all in one post, so bare with me as it may take several for me to get what I need to say out.
Prior to the affair I was a confident, relatively happy person with real dreams and genuine trust and love for people.
Now I am none of that. In fact, I hate myself. I disgust myself. If I saw me on the street I would spit in my face.
Yup. That's where I am at. Weird how one event can change everything. Not only did I have to battle to save my marriage, I now have to battle to save myself.
Put the internet to work for you.
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