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Relationships and Anxiety.

For the past month I have had a wonderful relationship with my boyfriend. As soon as I met him I could tell we had a connection, and for the past month or so, I have been the happiest I have ever been. He is kind, lovely, funny, always makes me laugh, we share a lot of interests, he is just generally amazing.
I've suffered from anxiety in the past, and, probably due to essay stress at Uni, it has suddenly come on again.
Despite the fact I know I really like him, I get anxious and compulsive, repetitive thoughts. One minute I'm stressing over the fact he hasn't texted me back, the next I'm questioning whether he is right for me, whether we rushed things, whether we should even be in this relationship at all. Then I get even more annoyed and angry at myself as I know I want to be with him - the thought of ending things when they've barely had a chance to properly develop makes me so sad.
I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced this sort of relationship anxiety. I think I have Generalised Anxiety Disorder at the moment and this is making it worse. These obsessive thoughts are starting to interfere with my work and I'm at a loss of what to do. If I ended it, I would be horribly unhappy and would miss him a hell of a lot. But, I don't see how I can continue for much longer when I'm constantly plagued with these thoughts that I do not want to have at all.
I have talked about this with him. He is really understanding but obviously he can only be so understanding for so long before he decides to leave me due to a lack of trust or something. Even when I'm with him, I feel really happy because he makes me laugh and we have lots of fun together, but the thoughts still plague my mind.
I had the same situation with my ex-boyfriend and I ended up ending the relationship over it. However, this guy is different; he has made me a lot happier in many ways - I already feel attached to him and it's been just over a month.
Any advice, experiences, words of wisdom would be much appreciated. I'm at an entire loss of what to do, and just want these feelings to go away so I can go back to enjoying our relationship properly.

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