I need help and I have absolutely no idea where else to turn. I will tell my story as well as I can, and please weigh in with any helpful thoughts. Let me preface with I am NOT validating my actions as right. I know I was wrong, I don't need to hear that right now. It happened and I need help recovering. I have been married 12 years. I have 4 kids. My husband is a nice person and a great father... but honestly I have not felt close to him in years. I know it is both of our faults, but I suppose I do resent him because I really tried. He never saw a problem so never tried to change anything. Anyway, I met a man (also married) who I had an instant strong attraction to. I just buried my feelings. He lives our of the country, so I assumed he would be gone and that would be that. He later texted me telling me how attracted he was to me on a physical and emotional level. He went on and on about how amazing I am... blah. blah. blah. Anyway, I was hooked. I agree d to meet with him. We talked for awhile and there was a kiss goodbye. I knew I would not let it go any further. But, my issue is I am absolutely obsessed with this man now. I cannot stop thinking about him. When he first went back home we messaged a lot, and then it died down because he told me his wife was getting suspicious. He never said "i think we should stop" He just said he wanted to be more careful. He asked that I never contact him and that he contact me. I know how crazy this sounds. He is clearly just not a good person. But why cant my heart understand that??? Why can't I just forget about him??? I feel sick to my stomach. I feel broken hearted. My husband is not abusive in any way... I need to learn to love him again. Why am I so hung up on a person who clearly does not feel the same way about me? (he very rarely messages...but when he does he is always telling me he loves me!) I have never experienced anything like this. I have felt heart broken before... but I was single and i knew I had the hope that I would meet someone even better. I don't have that hope now. I will not do this again... not fair to my husband and too painful. I feel utterly hopeless. I almost see no point in life anymore. Anyone have any experience with anything like this?
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