Me and my partner have been together for nearly two years, and we have faced a lot, mainly because my low self esteem, depression, suicidal thoughts and a terrible home situation. But recently, things have been very bad. I asked him if he would come see me, some time after the schoo time we have, but he refused, said I should wait till the weekend, because he has homework. Now I can understand how education is very important since he is going to university very soon, but all I needed was one afternoon during the week. Just once. My self esteem got worse, my eatign and sleeping were effected. On a couple of occasions I thought about self mutilation. Last saturday, we had a long conversation abotu splitting up as a way to make this end. We didnt split up, but the conversation was hurtful, obviously.
Now it is three days after, and he is fine. He says he just gets over it and doesnt dwell on the past and looks toward the future.... but I'm not fine. I'm not okay, I don't feel any better. I start to feel like the bad one, because I'm not over it. He has stated he doesnt understand why it still bothers me... So I'm not really sure if I should feel at guilt. Or what to do about the situation. How to make things better.
Now it is three days after, and he is fine. He says he just gets over it and doesnt dwell on the past and looks toward the future.... but I'm not fine. I'm not okay, I don't feel any better. I start to feel like the bad one, because I'm not over it. He has stated he doesnt understand why it still bothers me... So I'm not really sure if I should feel at guilt. Or what to do about the situation. How to make things better.
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