Me and my ex had been together when I was working abroad for a year and got very serious, we decided to do long distance for 3 months before I move back. However last month he said he doesn't love me anymore :( It's literally the hardest thing in the world for me to accept as I'm madly in love and just can't understand how his feelings even went that quick after being in an ldr, esp as it was temp.
Since then I've been contemplating if I should move back as I don't have many friends left there as most I knew were also just working there for the year. But I just LOVE living there so much, my lifestyle was much better and I was so excited to go back. Now I've just found out he already has a new girlfriend and I really don't think I can go back now as imagining me being lonely (at the start atleast) and bumping into them would be too much.
I've decided to build my future in London instead where my friends and family are but I feel so downhearted - my life has gone from being so happy to wishing I wasn't hear anymore and I just can't see how I'll feel better.I'm on contract work atm and desperately looking for another job every opportunity I get for when it ends as I can't bear how much worse I'll get when I don't even have work as a distraction. My friends are great but I'm still lonely a lot as they spend a lot of weekends with their boyfs and I just feel no joy in anything. I'm so fussy when it comes to guys which doesn't help.
Not even sure what I'm asking for here! Just wanted to write my feelings and if anyone's feeling similar or has advice on what to do?
Since then I've been contemplating if I should move back as I don't have many friends left there as most I knew were also just working there for the year. But I just LOVE living there so much, my lifestyle was much better and I was so excited to go back. Now I've just found out he already has a new girlfriend and I really don't think I can go back now as imagining me being lonely (at the start atleast) and bumping into them would be too much.
I've decided to build my future in London instead where my friends and family are but I feel so downhearted - my life has gone from being so happy to wishing I wasn't hear anymore and I just can't see how I'll feel better.I'm on contract work atm and desperately looking for another job every opportunity I get for when it ends as I can't bear how much worse I'll get when I don't even have work as a distraction. My friends are great but I'm still lonely a lot as they spend a lot of weekends with their boyfs and I just feel no joy in anything. I'm so fussy when it comes to guys which doesn't help.
Not even sure what I'm asking for here! Just wanted to write my feelings and if anyone's feeling similar or has advice on what to do?
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