Sorry.. this might be long.
I've been with my boyfriend for about two years, we put a deposit down a while ago on a flat and are moving in together in two weeks. Now I'm wondering whether I should go through with it and just break up with him.
I think I do still love him but he's really upset me and I don't feel he's supported me.
I had an abortion two weeks ago (something I'm very upset about) and I stayed at his house so he could look after me, the morning afterwards I woke up quite early and started crying, I felt so bad, he was really angry with me because he normally has to wake up early for work and wanted to have a lie in, so I ended up walking miles home at 7am on my own in pain and crying, it just felt like he didn't care at all.
I didn't see him very much until last weekend, I invited him over to my flat and cooked him a nice dinner and did all sorts for him, ran him a nice bath, gave him a massage etc, he stayed the night and I got up at about 9am, so not that early, and started brushing my hair, he got really angry again at been woken up early so I just left him in my bed and went in the lounge.
When he woke up he apologized for being angry and said we'd go for a walk in the park and go somewhere for lunch, but then his friend (who i'm also friendly with) called him and invited him out for lunch for his birthday (he probably invited me too as he usually always does). He left and went out with his friend but didn't invite me, he said we'd meet up in the evening but his friend ended up having a party with loads of guests including girls so it wasn't just a guys-only thing. I felt so so lonely sat in my flat all day and night on my own, really needed a friend and he thought I was making a big deal out of nothing for being upset about being left out.
I've never ever felt the loneliness I did that day and i'm upset about everything and how he treated me, he used to be so caring and kind but it just feels like he being selfish.
Do you think he just doesn't care or maybe he's upset about the abortion or maybe wanted some freedom before we move in together?
I'm still feeling really lonely and isolated as I can't tell anyone about the abortion, only him, also he's made some really inappropriate jokes about it which have really hurt.
I just think he's not treated me right at all and he thinks what he's done is fine, I just don't know whether to split up with him or not as things aren't getting any easier, it might just be because i'm feeling so sad that these things are getting my upset, i have no idea. :(
Any advice? Thanks
I've been with my boyfriend for about two years, we put a deposit down a while ago on a flat and are moving in together in two weeks. Now I'm wondering whether I should go through with it and just break up with him.
I think I do still love him but he's really upset me and I don't feel he's supported me.
I had an abortion two weeks ago (something I'm very upset about) and I stayed at his house so he could look after me, the morning afterwards I woke up quite early and started crying, I felt so bad, he was really angry with me because he normally has to wake up early for work and wanted to have a lie in, so I ended up walking miles home at 7am on my own in pain and crying, it just felt like he didn't care at all.
I didn't see him very much until last weekend, I invited him over to my flat and cooked him a nice dinner and did all sorts for him, ran him a nice bath, gave him a massage etc, he stayed the night and I got up at about 9am, so not that early, and started brushing my hair, he got really angry again at been woken up early so I just left him in my bed and went in the lounge.
When he woke up he apologized for being angry and said we'd go for a walk in the park and go somewhere for lunch, but then his friend (who i'm also friendly with) called him and invited him out for lunch for his birthday (he probably invited me too as he usually always does). He left and went out with his friend but didn't invite me, he said we'd meet up in the evening but his friend ended up having a party with loads of guests including girls so it wasn't just a guys-only thing. I felt so so lonely sat in my flat all day and night on my own, really needed a friend and he thought I was making a big deal out of nothing for being upset about being left out.
I've never ever felt the loneliness I did that day and i'm upset about everything and how he treated me, he used to be so caring and kind but it just feels like he being selfish.
Do you think he just doesn't care or maybe he's upset about the abortion or maybe wanted some freedom before we move in together?
I'm still feeling really lonely and isolated as I can't tell anyone about the abortion, only him, also he's made some really inappropriate jokes about it which have really hurt.
I just think he's not treated me right at all and he thinks what he's done is fine, I just don't know whether to split up with him or not as things aren't getting any easier, it might just be because i'm feeling so sad that these things are getting my upset, i have no idea. :(
Any advice? Thanks
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