This is a long story but ill try to hit the main points.. plz any input from men and women would be helpful....
I worked for this women at a pizza shop, Bridget. She had a very assertive and bossy personality, was instantly attracted, id never been with the "dominatrix type" before. Which she deffenetly is. Sexually im extremely attracted even still. Emotionally, shes not there, doesnt care about other people, and has even said she "uses and hurts men, its just what i do" I cant for the life of me understand why.
Back in may she took me camping, literally jumped on top of me, had great sex, a relationship (I guess) was born. We kept in cotact regularly and got close very quickly. She was the first women i told i was bi, and she was cool with it, even encouraging a bi threesome with me and another man.(she is also bisexual, which i love) It seemed perfect. I never thought id see a reaction from a woman like that. She told me all about her life, her exes, and her experiences, and i did the same. Then in july we moved in together with two other people. Long story short, she didnt get along with the other two guys in the house, she eventually moved out..and it just so happened she was in love with two men (me and her ex) and she moved back in with her ex in i guess beginning of november.
We broke up when she told me about being in love with two men i would say about 2nd week of october. The last 3 weeks till she moved out were he**. I mostly started alot of fights because i knew the day would come where shed walk out the door back into her exes arms. She has about 4 years of history with the ex (call him Jake)
So nov 1 shes living with jake, and im a wreck, literally cried many times (im a wuss i know) Be last week of november she calls me " I made a mistake" apparently jake used her for sex and was seeing another woman. Me being the sucker i am, bite and start hanging out with her again. We have sex a few times, once when jake was in the house. He walked upstairs to find us both naked on her bed. I even went to get up when i heard him coming, and she said "no just stay here" she wanted him to catch us!!! That is cold hearted. We had been talking about moving back intogether (not dating, just roomates).
Im not gonna lie i love her physically, i loved how she was in bed. No woman has ever turned me on that much. Emotionally, shes non existent, i cant help but feel shes a user and out for herself. I cant settle down with a girl like this.
So today i decided to finally take the stand, as i have so few times with her. I walked to were she worked (and i used to work there, its how we met) we talked outside and i told her,
"me and you living together just isnt going to work"
"why"
"I know if I move with you you're only gonna hurt me, i dont want to go through that again.
"why, how do you think im going to hurt you, what are you afraid of?"
"shrugged my shoulders, our relationship has been mostly about sex and we are unstable together. My life is already full, Im trying to get back on track and build myself back up, I need stability" (I was really thinking, as she did with the ex, shes going to bring other men over there, and possibly have sex with them, I dont need it, I dont want to hear her upstairs with another man, cant do it, wont do it.
"you know youre screwing me over by not moving in, and ill have to pay more rent"
"not my problem"
"well you dont have a job at work here (still there part time) so dont bother coming in"
"ok"
"goodbye"
"goodbye"
It was bitter sweet, really i had a smile and a frown at the same time. I finally stood up to her, and said enough is enough. Do you think i was to bitter? Not bitter enough" Some men told me i should manipulate, but its not my nature, im a straight shooter....heres whats going on...i feel....etc etc. So thats how i told it to her. Any input?
I worked for this women at a pizza shop, Bridget. She had a very assertive and bossy personality, was instantly attracted, id never been with the "dominatrix type" before. Which she deffenetly is. Sexually im extremely attracted even still. Emotionally, shes not there, doesnt care about other people, and has even said she "uses and hurts men, its just what i do" I cant for the life of me understand why.
Back in may she took me camping, literally jumped on top of me, had great sex, a relationship (I guess) was born. We kept in cotact regularly and got close very quickly. She was the first women i told i was bi, and she was cool with it, even encouraging a bi threesome with me and another man.(she is also bisexual, which i love) It seemed perfect. I never thought id see a reaction from a woman like that. She told me all about her life, her exes, and her experiences, and i did the same. Then in july we moved in together with two other people. Long story short, she didnt get along with the other two guys in the house, she eventually moved out..and it just so happened she was in love with two men (me and her ex) and she moved back in with her ex in i guess beginning of november.
We broke up when she told me about being in love with two men i would say about 2nd week of october. The last 3 weeks till she moved out were he**. I mostly started alot of fights because i knew the day would come where shed walk out the door back into her exes arms. She has about 4 years of history with the ex (call him Jake)
So nov 1 shes living with jake, and im a wreck, literally cried many times (im a wuss i know) Be last week of november she calls me " I made a mistake" apparently jake used her for sex and was seeing another woman. Me being the sucker i am, bite and start hanging out with her again. We have sex a few times, once when jake was in the house. He walked upstairs to find us both naked on her bed. I even went to get up when i heard him coming, and she said "no just stay here" she wanted him to catch us!!! That is cold hearted. We had been talking about moving back intogether (not dating, just roomates).
Im not gonna lie i love her physically, i loved how she was in bed. No woman has ever turned me on that much. Emotionally, shes non existent, i cant help but feel shes a user and out for herself. I cant settle down with a girl like this.
So today i decided to finally take the stand, as i have so few times with her. I walked to were she worked (and i used to work there, its how we met) we talked outside and i told her,
"me and you living together just isnt going to work"
"why"
"I know if I move with you you're only gonna hurt me, i dont want to go through that again.
"why, how do you think im going to hurt you, what are you afraid of?"
"shrugged my shoulders, our relationship has been mostly about sex and we are unstable together. My life is already full, Im trying to get back on track and build myself back up, I need stability" (I was really thinking, as she did with the ex, shes going to bring other men over there, and possibly have sex with them, I dont need it, I dont want to hear her upstairs with another man, cant do it, wont do it.
"you know youre screwing me over by not moving in, and ill have to pay more rent"
"not my problem"
"well you dont have a job at work here (still there part time) so dont bother coming in"
"ok"
"goodbye"
"goodbye"
It was bitter sweet, really i had a smile and a frown at the same time. I finally stood up to her, and said enough is enough. Do you think i was to bitter? Not bitter enough" Some men told me i should manipulate, but its not my nature, im a straight shooter....heres whats going on...i feel....etc etc. So thats how i told it to her. Any input?
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