I am loosing it

Okay, my so call husband of 30 yrs which for the past 20 yrs has turned into a room mate is now going through a recovery period of being addicted to prescription pain pills for the past 7 years. From the beginning of August I have been going through hell with his detoxing and trying to help support him. Trying to be a nurse to him.So, now I given up asking him if he needs something to eat, drink etc. I have been going with him to the doctors and have giving up 2 weeks of work to stay home so that he doesn't hurt himself and to make sure he takes his meds properly and he doesn't listen to me. It's now over a month and I feel he is getting back at me. he will at times get out of bed to to certain things he wants to do. other wise he will just be so hopeless and he will just sleep for 12 hours and sometime doesn't want to take a bath. I try to be nice, but now I am over being nice. At this point I hate to say it I have already thought about a divorc e and now that his putting me through this helplessness crap. I have come to hate him. I have had thoughts were I wish he would just die. I don't know how much more I can take of this with him. He yells at me when I just ask him to do just the littlest thing. Like take the dog out to do his thing or will you go take a bath you will feel better. The meeting's that his attending for his addiction he says he doesn't belong there. He tells me I don't understand what his going through. I got so mad, cause I have been there and I know what's it like!! I am clan and sober for 20 yrs now. I have spoken to his doctors and I cried in the doctors office. I want him to be institutionalize in an in patient ward. Away from me!!! Before I go insane seeing and being with him in bed looking all hopeless or yelling me. I hate this so bad. I won't leave because I have my a beautiful Grand Daughter 3 yrs old and one more baby girl soon to arrive any day now. I am most happy when I am with them. My son and his wife lives with me and they know what I am going through. I Grand Daughter keeps me strong and going. But with my room mate it's dead and tiring.:lol:

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